ohh ma godddd...i really think i have a problem with communication. It seems every time i try to talk to new people, i get all giggyly and frantic or i just go squat and act dull...neither of those is really me. And then people think im crazy or disable or something. haha its kinda a shame though because i really like meeting new people after the awkwardness of the first meeting is over with. Those people who say be yourself can shove it cus i am being myself but a very off version. ohh and especially around boys, they make me crazzyyy...but everyone says that. Maybe im normal and think im crazy...hmm? Well...if youre reading this then next time i meet you and act stupid, you wont think im retard-dido

Its hard to find someone who likes the cajun music i do. I have plenty of friends who would come along with me to keep me company when i go to see a band but none of them really enjoy it. I mean...there are many people here of course that love the music but they tend to be above my age group. I suppose the reason for my liking it so much is because it is something so unique and rich with culture, unlike any of the more popular music out today. I can not believe though that i ended up liking this genre of music so much. I remember being dragged to festival after grueling festival every summer when i was a kid and absolutely detesting the hot, sweaty, loud sway of the crowd. Now, i enjoy the chaos of festivals and the vibrance of their visitors. I guess Ive always been like that though, i often change my opinions and views quickly. Regimes, schedules, day after day, are the things i dislike most. Anyways, i began playing the violin again, it took such a while to find things here

It's so easy to read people sometimes that i fail to try to understand them even further...but other times...people can be mysterious and unreadable. That sparks my curiousity even further knowing that it will be of some challenge to understand this person. Today, i was talking to a friend of mine and i said something expecting a certain answer and instead, i was taken aback by the exact opposite answer. Thats the thing i guess...people will always be unpredictable no matter how much we try to examine each other. We always end up in amazment when someone reaches a level that another person declared impossible. I suppose that is very much our attribute as a race. We can not be absolute...we are constantly shifting...